"You Raise Me Up"

Ok so I know I talk about Edison 24/7 but he is my world I would be nothing with out him & honestly I have been having a hard time lately with being a single mom & trying to stay positive and really believing everything will work out I took Edison out side today and I swear every time he smile its the most amazing thing all over again I am so thankful to be his mother he makes me strong when I feel  weak he keeps me going when I want to give up he reminds me there is a god when I feel in doubt he reminds I have a reason a to live when I feel hopeless & 

I kept thinking of the song

 by Josh Groban you rise me up 

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

You raise me up... To more than I can be. 

I also think about god when I hear this song but Edison is my gift from god & I am so thankful to be his mother I know these hard times will pass & I am trying so hard to have faith I hope one day I will be really strong for all I have gone through I have changed my whole life around when I got pregnant I wanted Edison to have the best life possible I want to give him things I never got before I was adopted I know I cant stop every thing bad from happening to him but I do feel a lot of the things that were done to me I can stop the cycle & give him something better :) but on a different note I start taking classes on monday on campus no more of this online stuff I am excited to be in a class room again! 

La la la

Ok so last night before I went to bed I had to look at Edison & 

that's what I saw my little angel boy loving on his monkey! Edison is just so sweet & tender! 

I love him so much! He is my saving grace. 

Oh and yesterday I was having a really really hard day 

Edison is teething & was so grumpy.

 I was really down on myself I have struggled with depression for many years 

but two of my sisters & mom have gotten into a business called doTERRA.

Its Essential oils & I used a few yesterday to help me & oh my gosh they worked wonders 

I loved it! I will be using them everyday I am excited to not be on meds but have something natural & safe to help me! I already used them today & feel wonderful! 

Him & I

I have never done a blog but I am starting today

My life is at weird point but I am trying to be happy 

I am trying to find myself 

I left my husband & I am waiting for my divorce to go through 

I have a beautiful little boy I love to death he is the best thing that has happened to me

I am in school for graphic arts I love it

Life is a crazy thing but its what you make of it that matters 

& I am trying to make it the best I can :D 

That is my son Edison he is 6 & half months old he is my world 

He makes me strong when I am weak I love him oh so much!